:)

hot summer day

2012-01-09T16:34:00.001+08:00

nom nom nom on favourite cup noodles on a hot lazy 35 degrees celsius summer day in the air conditioned room :)

survive a new year

2012-01-05T17:35:00.006+08:00

2011 had been horrid year. lots more down than ups i would say.

i ended 2011 with tears and pain.

i started 2012 with a much happier and settled mindset :)

i believe 2012 will be a better year ahead for me :)

i can feel the toning down of sadness. and i can feel the bounce in me.

i'm still the same old me. a bit more mature, a bit stronger, and a bit fatter.

some recaps on 2011, if you guys are still here.

i've loved and lost. i lost almost all my good friends that i've made in my first semester in brisbane.

i travelled quite a bit this year. thanks to the field trips involved with my bachelor.

i've got a nape and navel piercing, for almost a year already. and i'm planning to stretch the ears slightly.

i haven't been home for almost a year. i quite glad my friends still remember me and are waiting for my arrival back home in 2 weeks.

had the biggest fight with sis ever. i guess that's what you get for putting 2 relatively spoilt girls together and expect them to share a room and bed.

i've clubbed so much last year. almost every friday for the 2nd semester. clubbing is a lot of fun, but stupid mistakes comes along every couple of months in the scene life.

i got my very first car too. 1997 volkswagen golf hatchback. it's quite old, and quite meh. but i'm getting attached to it.

a little picture update as well <3

2011-10-27T02:37:00.000+08:00

every picture i see. my heart dies a little more.

2011-10-18T21:48:00.002+08:00

all i wanna do is to go home.

all i ever looked forward to this whole year is to go home.

and all you two want of me is to stay here and do research project.

i've been here for almost an entire year. and you won't even let me go home for a month.

2011-10-10T21:07:00.003+08:00

getting disturbingly interested in marine organisms as compared to terrestrial organisms recently...

even worse.

i'm more interested in fishes and invertebrates than i am towards marine mammals :/

this is disturbingly odd.

clown fishes, doubleheaders, rays... sea anemones, sea cucumbers and sea slugs... over dolphins and whales.

cereally? for real?

<:/ oddball surfacing.

2011-10-05T01:46:00.002+08:00

hi.

i know i shouldn't. but i am.

i miss the past. i really do.

i think it's the late night insomnia.

i've the little, aching feeling tugging at my chest.

b, i really miss us.

first car ;)

2011-07-07T17:41:00.003+08:00

woke up 1030.

left house 1145.

missed the 12:10 109 bus.

took the 12:10 109 bus.

missed the 12:29 100 bus.

took the 1:04 100 bus.

wrong direction. ended up in the city.

withdraw $$ cash.

took the 1:40 110 bus.

1 hour journey.

reached Inala town centre at 2:40+++.

withdraw $$ cash.

First impression of Inala: niggas. vietnams. dangerous. kidnapped. mugged.

waited for 45mins for car owner, ~3:45.

test drive car for 20mins ish?

waited 1hour for road worthy certificate ~5:30.

did required paperwork, paid $$ in cash.

COME TO MAMA YOU VOLKSWAGEN GOLF <3 <3 <3

2011-06-16T04:06:00.001+08:00

too good a mood to sleep :)

but i'm gonna brush my teeth now and try to sleep :)

hehehe. <3 <3 <3

2011-06-16T03:57:00.003+08:00

i caught the lunar eclipse just an hour ago :)

first time in my life. definitely won't let it be the last <3

it's exam period.

i'm kinda efficient this sem. but kinda slow as well. like i could have done more.

things aren't getting any better.

but i'm definitely in a way better mood now cause of the eclipse :)

Joke of the semester.

so as i was moving around the estate trying to find a better spot to look at moon cause it was setting behind the building. as i was climbing up the ledge at 530am, a guy walked past me in a huff (he was probably over thinking things and wanted to get home asap). so i stood on the ledge thinking what should i do as i know that any single movement from me would scare him. but after standing on the ledge for 3 seconds or so, it felt a bit awkward and i jumped of the ledge. without expecting such a huge PIAK PIAK from my slippers landing. he spun around and stared at him. while i cool-ly waved my hands signaling i'm human to him. AWKWARD.

2011-05-27T23:04:00.001+08:00

have not been scoring well this semester at all

2011-05-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

lecturers who don't upload lecture notes should be stabbed.

2011-05-14T12:41:00.000+08:00

i miss my friends. where we are so cb jek ark until karma. but still NEH it's okay cause we pwns!

2011-05-12T11:21:00.000+08:00

is fries or wedges higher in calories?

2011-05-12T11:02:00.000+08:00

if you know it. why continue letting it happen.

2011-05-11T19:55:00.001+08:00

ridiculous seeing how much effort they put in the group project. so can i assume only asians are hardworking? and efficient?

2011-05-09T17:52:00.002+08:00

the joy. of being a fucking uk6.

won't mind a 4 though.

2011-05-09T14:44:00.001+08:00

so mother chut hungry argh

2011-05-09T12:33:00.002+08:00

stalker people stop googling my name.

just so you know. i'm turning to elsewhere. this is not updated.

2011-05-09T12:22:00.002+08:00

put your hands up in the air.

do the finger. and shout fuck you world.

2011-05-09T12:22:00.001+08:00

我要回家。

2011-05-04T20:40:00.002+08:00

feeling like mother fucker crap now.

even chocolates ain't helping.

would need some fucking physical pain right now.

need.

feel like crap.

i need my friends. i fucking need hugs right now.

need a giant fat hug from someone. anyone :(

need a hug and someone to tell me everything is alright.

2011-04-18T13:24:00.003+08:00

nobody will understand. how is it like to be here by myself while all of you guys are back in sg having a time of your life.

but it's okay.

cause i know i'm remembered despite the distance between us <3

it's nice having your freshie coming up to you again after so long.

just to share their experience of their first fo.

and the one who just want to let you know that you're not forgotten.

the heart warming feeling. will keep me strong.

i <3 tp.

and all the people i've met there.

2011-04-18T12:36:00.001+08:00

can't wait for froday. this week is gonna be a breeze! just 2 assignments more! \m/

2011-04-16T20:11:00.001+08:00

major fucking cravings for wanton noodles and black carrot cake. hungry max for salty singapore food. urghhhhhhhhhhh.

2011-04-08T15:24:00.001+08:00

it's so cold it's ridiculous

2011-04-08T15:09:00.000+08:00

fml i hate it here. screw all you fucking racist girls _|_

2011-04-06T12:26:00.001+08:00

brisbane visitor on my blog. who are you?

2011-04-06T12:22:00.003+08:00

hera - i feel weird standing next to you!!!

dol - WHYYY D:

hera - i'm like dressed for winter with jacket and long sleeveeeeeee and you're dressed for summer! don't you feel cold?!?!

dol - i doooo!! but i don't wanna let go of summer yet

hera - summer is over!! it's so cold in the morning i woke up!

dol - yeah me too. i do feel cold. but i'm trying not to complain

hera - i should unpack my winter clothes soon!

but i'm not over with summer wear yet! D: i need my tan! i need to wear light flowy dresses and clothes X(

but i can't wait for summer too! <3

winter layers dressing!!! <3

2011-04-06T12:20:00.001+08:00

metabolism rate extremely high here.

24/7 hungry.

with a couple of hours break in between.

no fear my friends! i'm still 49kg. regular weighing checks pass!

2011-04-06T12:16:00.002+08:00

jasper - hey nice snickers wrapper

dol - ;DD

jasper - how much chocolate do you eat man!

dol - DD;

2011-04-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

flashback - cry on my shoulders

where i was still a freshmen in poly. too young to even think bout entering uni.

2011-04-01T22:20:00.003+08:00

terence says i always bottle things up.

but i do so cause i don't want to trouble others.

only when i really can't handle the emotions, will i approach people.

sometimes... i really want to share. but i can't find anyone.

and sometimes, i talk too much.

2011-03-28T21:20:00.001+08:00

i still feel emotionally unstable.

2011-03-28T15:01:00.001+08:00

distraction at its maximum!

2011-03-27T10:56:00.000+08:00

am i a boring person D:

2011-03-24T19:10:00.001+08:00

thank god it's ugly fringe and not short hair. phew. it could be so much worse!!!

2011-03-23T12:21:00.002+08:00

silly little kids love. do they even exist now.

everything now is just desire and lust.

where's the innocent don't even dare to hold hands love?

2011-03-21T22:13:00.001+08:00

i need to par par par tehhh.

need to havoc like shit.

need to lose those restlessness.

before i can start behaving like a student.

2011-03-21T22:10:00.001+08:00

gotta learn from mistake!

2011-03-19T20:57:00.003+08:00

would you go back to the past?

would you pay to see your future?

what would you want to do to be happy?

i think i'm in the period. whereby i'm still figuring my life out. i've goal that i'm pursuing. which is to work with animals. to the extend i really don't mind just working in a zoo.

but i think i'm still having a tough time figuring out my own identity. and probably finding peace with myself and being happy with what i have.

i know i've a lot. i have everything i want and need. i would say i'm using material gains (cheap shopping thrills) to make myself happy. thinking of the new clothes i bought and how to match them would occupy a space in my head. and so i won't think of others.

i had fun last night. it was good. reminded me of home. and i had something to distract me. something to occupy my head too. and i fear i would turn to it for comfort. but no doubt oz have the cheapest thrills ever.

$5 for a tequila shot. where can you find that HAHAHAHA. pwn.

i would love to get inked soon. hopefully once i turned 21. would definitely make me settle down a ton after getting it. i'm pretty sure.

i'm yearning for some physical pain right now. i can't believe nape healed so well actually. i would say it definitely healed as well as my other non surface piercings.

need a female clubbing partner here.

2011-03-19T11:01:00.001+08:00

guys need to learn how to appreciate before they lose it. then they start to regret and beg for things to go back to usual. cause it fucking won't.

2011-03-19T10:58:00.002+08:00

tao hua yun year for me. BAD.

super hot ex crush contacting me.

old flirt contacting me.

favourite ex boyfriend started contacting me.

and the ex fling still buzzing around.

what luck. BAD.

2011-03-19T09:30:00.001+08:00

i want a slow loris

Post Created Mar 18, 2011 4:10:32

2011-03-18T02:03:00.001+08:00

I just want to be happy. Is that all too much to ask? And I realize I've no friends here except for my housemates. How fucking loser. How can Dolyce who have friends every corner in tp only have a handful of "friends" here. And are they even friends at all. Fml. I can never be truly happy in this piece of shithole.

Post Created Mar 18, 2011 3:43:59

2011-03-18T01:36:00.001+08:00

Emo nemo potato

2011-03-18T00:34:00.001+08:00

would being anorexic slim down my thighs? :( i need butt liposuction.

2011-03-18T00:21:00.001+08:00

talking bout your gf while flirting is not exactly very attractive.

2011-03-18T00:19:00.001+08:00

i don't want to be a part time.

i want to be a full time. and only one.

2011-03-16T19:14:00.001+08:00

a crush is just a crush. nothing good comes outta it <:(

2011-03-15T14:55:00.001+08:00

i think i need to party.

2011-03-14T14:15:00.000+08:00

just wanna sloth around and surf the net 24/7 so i don't have to do school work. cause i'm loser like that.

2011-03-14T13:24:00.002+08:00

why do we all have to grow up. and watch things change.

why do we all have to grow up. and made life changing decisions.

2011-03-14T13:20:00.003+08:00

i wanna go back to the past.

when i was still a junior taking my diploma.

despite those heartbreaks and backstabbing.

it was still the best time of my time.

i would say year 2 was the best time of my life.

feeling so fucking homesick now.

it's so tough being here.

2011-03-14T13:18:00.000+08:00

i've changed so much these few years.

i miss having a best friend.

2011-03-14T13:01:00.002+08:00

washing clothes is actually quite therapeutic. until the ironing comes into the picture.

i like the feeling of throwing clothes into the washing machine. comes out smelling good.

but i hate to think of ironing. but i like to wear nicely ironed clothes. makes me feel good bout myself. to wear straight crisp clothes.

i secretly think people who don't iron their clothes are lazy.

all i want to do all day is to gorge myself silly with delicious food.

but i don't want to gain weight :(

feel so emo nemo when i'm not eating.

but feel so upset thinking bout gaining weight.

i wanna canoeeeeeeeeeee.

but the river is down.

and canoeing is down too D:

i really don't mind canoeing as a form of exercise!!!

i'm so whineyyyyy . but i can't help it :(

life sucks.

i need something to keep me going. and currently it's getting a new -. cause i dont wanna get inked yet.

okay i'm going to make some food. then attempt to read articles.

:( life sucks.

2011-03-14T13:00:00.001+08:00

still suffering from homesickness. moodless. slothness. anti-social behaviour

2011-03-12T02:12:00.001+08:00

WHY.

are all the hot guys taken...

2011-03-11T22:24:00.001+08:00

homesick. badly. fuck my emo life.

angry >:(

2011-03-11T21:45:00.002+08:00

I'M SO ANGRYYYYY.

HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SO IRRITATING AND ANNOYING.

if you're a boring person. you should go ahead and be your stupid brainless boring person yourself. don't make others be like you.

my life in oz sucks. i need my night life now. i NEED. need it so fucking badly.

i've no life here. life is so miserable. so bad.

i hate it here.

i need my life back in sg.

fucked up Saturday morning

2011-02-26T09:12:00.001+08:00

Super unsatisfying sleep t

2011-02-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

everything suck balls.

ronald needs to go back camp. with no whatsapp.

ben is sleeping.

and qq has no whatsapp omfg i think i can die.

where are you all D: where.

i really really need you all here with me now...

2011-02-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

i need my singapore friends.

i want to be at home letting mummy handle everything.

i want my doggie...

i'm the youngest here yet i've to be the responsible one...

Post Created Feb 19, 2011 13:09:11

2011-02-19T13:02:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna go. Really. I dont...

2nd goodbye

2011-02-16T06:20:00.001+08:00

This goodbye's gonna be worst than the previous. Feel that I've more to leave behind than the previous.

I'm having more fun.. And I guess closer ties with my peeps.

Spending the last few days to the max.

Whats sleep when you've only have 5 days left...

7 days

2011-02-14T18:16:00.001+08:00

Have been spending the past few weeks to the brim :) with the expense of my sleep! But I guess it's worth it..

2011-02-11T04:48:00.001+08:00

i think i'll die from the lack of late night hang outs once i reach the land of the whites.

nuuuuuuu.

must spend my last 10 days wisely!

2011-02-09T22:22:00.001+08:00

the pay for the past couple months have been converted to credit where i can use them to buy anything i deem necessary for ozland ;D

MANHANTTAN PORTAGE HAVERSACK I'M HEREEEEEEEE~~!

2011-02-06T02:32:00.001+08:00

gambling is bad... gambling is fucked up! D:

2011-02-04T21:16:00.001+08:00

this is a fucked up family.

i can't wait to go back to australia.

2011-02-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

this is a fucked up family.

i can't wait to go back to australia.

2011-02-02T22:53:00.001+08:00

any guys who brought you much pain do not deserve your time at all. scrammmmmmmmm.

2011-02-02T21:41:00.001+08:00

stop being childish. leave me alone.

2011-02-01T04:08:00.003+08:00

i think i need to stop wasting my time online hahahaha cause being online in the middle of the night makes me pessimistic!

shut up humans. i'll open my blog soon. after cny i guess.

2011-02-01T03:29:00.001+08:00

dislike liars and hongsters.

where did all the real people go :(

i miss some real people in my life...

2011-02-01T02:02:00.001+08:00

honestly do not feel happy thinking bout the past. at all. fml. still not over despite it being that many years :(

2011-01-30T22:10:00.003+08:00

i feel like i'll never be able to enjoy my time again when i go to brisbane without these friends of mine...

flood update

2011-01-29T23:06:00.002+08:00

headed back to brisbane last week to salvage whatever i could of my belongings and my friends.

i think i've super supportive family members.

and some of my friends should be more appreciative...

but oh well.

new house kinda suck.

esp the new room. but yeah suck thumb and deal with it.

maybe i'll learn to love it? :)

bought super lots of clothes this trip back.

super happy :) cause i can only surge when i'm with sis.

spending good money on quality clothes.

once i head back to brisbane by myself i'll be back to the $30 budget on shopping :/

gotta spend my last 3 weeks + to the best!

2011-01-21T04:13:00.002+08:00

impromptu return back to brisbane to salvage whatever i can.

i know it's a waste of money flying back to brisbane for a week.

why can't i wait it out a while longer?

because. my stuffs are there. my sis stuffs are there.

there are things there which we are emotionally attached to.

there are things that cost so much when it's in pain, you feel the pain too.

even though i do feel the pinch spending so much on air tickets, etc just to go back and see what damaged items i can save.

i feel comforted that at least i tried my best to save it. at least i tried.

it would mean so much more than just ditching it there to be thrown away by people who do not feel any attachments to perishables.

they are more than perishables. they are my friends. a part of me...

>24 hours to the flight back brisbane.

can't wait to see my beloved.

2011-01-21T04:12:00.002+08:00

there are some people who you aren't exactly friends with. but you know that they are the type of people you would be able to hang around with.

and once you guys physically know each other. they are the ones you automatically and easily click with. becoming good friends in a matter of hours, or days.

2011-01-19T16:19:00.002+08:00

no more diving. ggballs loh.

die drowning. how scary.

parents need to be on better terms.

sis needs to be more understanding.

2011-01-19T16:19:00.001+08:00

no more diving. ggballs loh.

die drowning. how scary.

parents need to be on better terms.

sis needs to be more understanding.

2011-01-17T01:40:00.001+08:00

sacrifice. for a happier me.

why

2011-01-16T21:27:00.001+08:00

why am i the only one affected so badly by the flood while everybody can't care two hoots.

leaving your ruined belongings in the balcony is alright to you guys but it isn't to me at all.

i will NOT leave my belongings in the MUD and STENCH for another month. no way. ever.

Post Created Jan 16, 2011 9:57:14

2011-01-16T09:50:00.001+08:00

Knn cb. Forced to work, forced to go, forced to fucking not have holidays at all. Fuck.

Come back 3 months. Work fucking 3 months.

2011-01-16T01:25:00.001+08:00

i should stop being so sensitive and paranoid!

2011-01-15T16:27:00.002+08:00

flood have subsided.

muddy stinky remains everywhere.

no news bout our belongings yet.

but oh well i shall not make a fuss and ask.

cause yeah i'm IRRITATING and INSENSITIVE to their lives.

just my tods loafers and coat is enough to pay for a fucking flight to sg.

Zzz.

end of work. i need to get my body clock back. freaking tired.

should stop sleeping when the sun rise. not cool at all.

2011-01-14T15:38:00.002+08:00

OMG YOU'RE SO ANNOYING!

i won't even have emailed you in the first place if del wasn't that worried! >:(

so obviously i would have to fake concern right?!

that's better than not being concern at all.

flood

2011-01-12T22:36:00.001+08:00

Here it is. Right in my face. Manors is flooded. First floor is completely submerged.

All my precious :(
my 500 tods loafers my 700 lover coat my handwritten notes :(
And my bday zooloretto board games :((

All my harddisk. Fuck my life.

One semester of living in comfort.
I've to start anew :(

Please balcony door. Please do not break.

2011-01-12T04:35:00.001+08:00

brisbane please stop flooding =( please don't flood anymore.

flooding in Brisbane

2011-01-11T17:05:00.001+08:00

The flood in Brisbane have reached St Lucia D: I'm extremely worried bout my belongings as well as friends there. Thank god I've decided to pay more to stay in a higher rise apartment area with plenty of other places to flood so I can say that my belongings that are in a friend's house is rather safe. If it doesn't continue flooding anymore. Please stop flooding. My printer and everything is in danger. My beloved notes as well. So are my clothes and everything else D: fmbl.

2011-01-10T16:07:00.001+08:00

wah cheebs.

fucking tired sia nb D:

talk until 730am.

then until 930am.

sleep at whattttt 11?

oh fml. totally lack of sleep!

revenge

2011-01-07T22:48:00.001+08:00

The yearning for revenge is so mother fucking strong it's intolerable.

It've gone beyond unhappiness and pain. It've grown into the want for revenge.
The need to hurt that wolf is overwhelming!

Itve been awhile since such a strong emotion of betrayal is taking over me.

2011-01-07T02:23:00.001+08:00

should stop playing test game.

2011-01-06T11:05:00.001+08:00

i am such a major stalker i should be shot hahahahhahahaha

2011-01-05T00:54:00.002+08:00

now i remember. the feelings there were always around. but never stayed for long.
the feeling where you know you've "friends" everywhere you turn.
but how much of a friend are these people.

you hold these people close to your heart. you think of them once in a while; frequently; all the time. you think of how things would be; could be; already are.

there are little moments now that i'm back in tp, walking those familiar paths :)
where i am indeed surrounded by people i know and can relate to.
but occasionally, little insecurity thoughts pop up.
and you go quiet, thinking what these people actually think of you as.

it's actually quite scary. to have so many "friends".
cause the number of people who actually judge you increases.
by a lot. so do bitching. etc.

but i'm 3/4 happy being back here :)
at least i see the real physical form of the people i've been looking at on fb for the past few months.

it's good. mostly :)

2011-01-03T00:24:00.003+08:00

i miss otc :( chiong even though you're half dead. push even though you're dying.

tomorrow. i'll squeeze in the bus 15. once again. with all the noobs who are younger than me D: i hope i get a seat! relive the poly morning lecture days \m/

we'll be alright

2011-01-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

we're young, we run free
stay up late, we don't sleep
got our friends, got the night
we'll be alright

throw our hands, in the air
pretty girls, everywhere
got our friends, got the night
we'll be alright

how true. how true.
\m/

2011-01-02T15:34:00.001+08:00

even if the world ends tomorrow.
plant an apple tree today.

2011-01-02T10:10:00.000+08:00

had a dream last night involving dogs. and lots of border collies! ;D

D:

2011-01-02T02:44:00.001+08:00

Rotten face + rotten skin = Dolyce

My complexion have deteriorate terribly. I've a pimple on my cheek!

I've got rashes and scratches on my thighs from the dirty chairs, plastics etc at daddy's store.

I've got sandflies + mosquito bites all over my ankles and feet from prawning. It's like a bad case of itchiness all over again after north stradbroke island.

I'm going to scar my legs and face for life. Oh life sucks.

And. I'm so tired :( so super duper lack of sleep. So deprived of sleep. Cant believe I'm working so hard these 3 months instead of playing :(

Need to save up. So settle my 2 debts. I am poor. Where did all my money go D: